i was having such a good weekend and i bought tickets to see Anamanaguchi with Sage and now i’m just scared and i feel pathetic and lost.

i thought i was doing mostly everything right, but that’s a lie because every time someone told me they were proud of me i felt like i was lying to them.

i wish i knew how to help myself. i feel like i need to do something to pick up the pieces or start new but i have no idea how.

edit: Melancholia hurts me but because it feels true.

albums to buy:

  • new daft punk
  • kendrick lamar maad city
  • yelle’s most recent album
  • new major lazer
  • justin timberlake 20/20
  • the youngblood brass band album… the one that has three words
  • marina and the diamonds new
  • all anamanaguchi
  • need to check out protomen & the megas, see which i want
  • the album “i wish you” is off that capsule did
  • also gotta steal the megaman music sage has
  • yip

sitting around in a bustier eating chinese food and playing league of legends

~*living the dream*~

i love when netflix puts up the “continue playing” thing and interrupts someone cursing because it’s like “this is some adult content, u sure you’re comfortable with this type of language? i can assure you they are not about to say ‘frick’ or ‘fugdenuggets’.”

Ezra Koenig, you’re on a Major Lazer song and you song lovely, you wonderful man you! Aaaaah I like him.

And then not a block from my apartment, I accidentally make eye contact with a black guy leaning out of a car and he looks right at me and yells at me “hey white bitch” and i looked away and down and it hit me a lot harder than i thought it would and gave me so many conflicted feelings that i had to take a time out from the world outside my apartment for a bit and recollect myself in an alcove on Broad.

Like, i’m sorry universe, but what did i do to have so many things make me feel weak and victimized in the span of 48 hours? whatever it is, i’m sorry.

Watching the episode of the office where Michael drives into a lake because a GPS told him to/he’s stubborn and thinking “if people can do dumb shit like that and move on from it, I should be fine”